oh crap!

well, today I got my final evaluation, and Im completly sad and confused, first bc I tought I was doing a good job and I was told it was ok, and this week the last one I have been organizing (expending money and time) the las exposition of the work, I also had been told It was good, and today I was so nervous and scared at my final presentation of the work that I guess I didnt sell it right, so at the end I got a really bad grade, I lost it and I may have to start all over again, well start is just a saying bc I just have to finish this carrer even if next semester I end up doing something really different or end up working as an Intern on an agency and that will be all. Easy as hell, just go to a place where everybody tells you what to do and you just have to make little pieces of work and show the time where you make it, thats it!
and with that you end up having a 5 on final grade instead of working your ass off something that will not be enough.

Well, thats kind of the hard part, the stubborn part of me.

I know that the project was really big and that coming really late to work was a mistake, but I work really hard to get it done, to learn, and just as a fashion world known celebritie says, make it work, so I trusted my mind, my director and do as I was told, I tooke the meetings and work with it, and I was really told that I was doing a good work, at the end al least, I worked really hard, till the point I was dreaming about it, whatching all the time non stop the people out in the streets, the way they dressed, the things they carry, the shapes, the brands. Sadly Im really bad at shows, at selling and I got scared, felt numb and little as a criket, and so Im here, thinking about all the things I should have said, thinking about all the times I wanted to stop, when ringo died, when I got all the fights and beyond tired Im confused and disappointed.

I just wish I knew better bc this semester has been really bad.